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Is it natural to get colder with each women? ( Need Dire advice)
My mental health is a rollercoaster. I never had a problem with girls and fucking them. However I never understand why i'm feeling like this. The red pill technically saved my life. My first introduction was Rollo Tomassi at 16-17 years old. After my first girlfriend broke up with me with "no reason" . However I still was a bitch and didn't lose my virginity until I was 19 (now 20) .
I feel like a loser, I'm going to the gym. I'm still skinny but came a far way from when I was a teenager. I'm at the point where my next goal is focusing on money. However the only area in my life that fucks my mental health is girls. To give a backstory, this girl I fucked couple of times wanted me to be her boyfriend. After two or three times of rejecting her I gave in, and I made her sign a contract to be my girl. Afterwards she didn't have sex with me for a month. I also tried "faking" the girls on my phone. By adding fake numbers and find nudes on the internet because I know she'll checked my phone. This is so I can fake the abundance, some girls were talking to me but they were the one I run away from.
I took some red pill advice and removed my attention and sometimes we fuck. I think I'm not a man enough for her. she has some red flags I overlooked. She has a scar on her face that she hides in her photos. She told everyone but me that her ex used to abuse her. I'm guessing he gave her that mark. She is 18 now, meaning she was a teenager and her ex was 25. They broke up because he had to go to the military. One day I came in her and she freaked out even on birth control. She told me she lost a baby once and I'm guessing she is traumatized. I'm only using her for sex, but the fact she doesn't tell me shit and vents to others pisses me off.
It makes me question what can I fix. Every time I deal with women my heart gets colder, as if I can't love. I don't even know how to text properly. I only text to meet up. She tried leaving me multiple times but she knows I'm fine with that and gets super horny. The first time she did it she grabbed my dick and told me to nut in her mouth. That's when I realized that I should always be prepared to walk away. I'm more angry at myself than her because I'm wondering why this keeps happening to me, I must not be learning something.
I think my mistakes were : Being in a relationship with a girl with too many red flags, getting in a relationship for sex reasons, trying to form a connection with a damaged girl, not being dominant enough when I speak to her.
How do I become stronger?
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