1y ago  The Hub

@elizabethscoffin That would make them weaker, not tougher.

1y ago  The Hub

@Typo-MAGAshiv Thanks for replying. Yeah, just... about this "real you" thing, perhaps this issue goes deeper than red pill for me. I am incapable of forming connections with any human whatsoever. I do not feel connected to my family, not mom, not dad, not brothers, etc. I do not have friends. I do not feel a connection with women when I speak to them.

But I can play the game to "get to the goal". But apparently I cannot emotionally enjoy the achievement.

That might sound a bit sociopathic, but I know that's not it. I deeply empathize with other people and I'm extremely emotional and sensitive. In fact I'm insanely emotionally sensitive. I can spend an entire day feeling bad because someone honked at me on the road (just did that today).

Fundamentally, my experience has taught me: "If you expose your real emotions to people, you're going to get fucked over." My guard is always up. It needs to go down in order for a connection to happen. It doesn't go down. And it especially doesn't go down with women who I perceive as rejection and hurt machines at this point.

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1y ago  The Hub

This doesn't explain the escort situation though. I don't know what's up with that. I really don't think it's porn.

1y ago  The Hub

@Parsec It's not porn. It's that I feel like women would never be attracted to who I really am, which makes me always have a guard on. Horniness is a raw, real emotion. My brain blocks those out because it has to block all other real emotions and behaviors which are unattractive to women.

And on top of that is all the pain, trauma, and failure I've experienced.

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1y ago  The Hub

Had a half naked girl in my bed. Wasn't even turned on because I got to that point by playing the red pill game and the "real me" was completely disconnected from the situation. Did nothing about it, there's no way I would even get an erection. Zero feelings. And she was hot af.

I'm finding it harder and harder to get sexually attracted / aroused. Even to porn. I was with an escort a few weeks ago, had trouble maintaining an erection. I didn't feel horny. I didn't feel desire. The feelings I got with the escort and with the aforementioned girl are more along the lines of feelings you get when you pass a school exam. It's stress and when it works it's relief, but there's no pleasure or desire.

I feel so traumatized by sexual / emotional experiences that I became numb.

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1y ago  The Hub

@carnold03 I wrote this post a few hours ago. I'm talking about the next week, that's when I'll have the opportunities. We'll see how it goes :)

1y ago  The Hub

@prejudiced_porridge

So over the next week I will have the opportunity to hang out with up to 5 girls all of whom seem at least somewhat interested in me. Thank you TRP principles for even getting me to the point of having them interested - it wouldn't happen otherwise. The 2 things that helped most for sure: Getting in shape, being older than them.

2 of these girls explicitly said they are into "bad guys". I would never expect these kinds of girls to show any sort of interest in me in the past, but here we are.

I'm not excited about this. It feels like work and I'm anxious. I just don't want to be a scared cuck anymore. So I "want" to have sex with at least 1 of them.

I have no guy friends to share my feelings with. So I'll share whatever I feel / learn on this forum. This is my emotional grounding. The grounding needs to be somewhere, so screw it, may as well be here, where all of you can shit on me :)

So, how'd things go?

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1y ago  The Hub

@IHateNames Yeah... Don't listen to me too much, I'm not very experienced nor good at this stuff. But I think that a strong Oneitis is never a good thing, regardless of whether things are going well or not. So that is probably something to work on either way.

Also, we here don't know the entire context. We don't know how easily you would get someone else, how much you care about her, how much she helps you in your life otherwise, how much she means to you, whether she has any legit reason to be this clingy that could be discussed... Based on those factors, the solution might not be to break it off.

1y ago  The Hub

So over the next week I will have the opportunity to hang out with up to 5 girls all of whom seem at least somewhat interested in me. Thank you TRP principles for even getting me to the point of having them interested - it wouldn't happen otherwise. The 2 things that helped most for sure: Getting in shape, being older than them.

2 of these girls explicitly said they are into "bad guys". I would never expect these kinds of girls to show any sort of interest in me in the past, but here we are.

I'm not excited about this. It feels like work and I'm anxious. I just don't want to be a scared cuck anymore. So I "want" to have sex with at least 1 of them.

I have no guy friends to share my feelings with. So I'll share whatever I feel / learn on this forum. This is my emotional grounding. The grounding needs to be somewhere, so screw it, may as well be here, where all of you can shit on me :)

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1y ago  The Hub

@IHateNames Did you explain to her that the project is important for you? If you did and she still doesn't respect that, you know what to do. She is supposed to support you in your pursuits not be a hinderance.

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