Forgot to update last night. Still stretching and sleeping better. Might have injured my hip stretching so I'm taking a few days off from leg stretching.

Gone for three years: took a break from most online communities I used to participate in (deleted facebook profile, twitter account, etc)

Also stopped coming here, I realize now I had no real plan after the last post. Lack of plan -> lack of action -> Lack of updates. Also I would just read things and feel good without acting.

ADHD still bad, feels like I'm being pulled in 30 directions at once whenever I try and channel mental energy to do anything. Unmedicated, no current counseling (my impression is that all the previous counseling did was make me feel better temporarily).

My life has changed somewhat. I am still frustrated by the fact that the changes never seem to be things I was putting effort towards. This might be because effort creates small incremental changes rather than instant dramatic ones. Still unsatisfying.

I'll paste the list again, to keep the pattern. I won't paste it again.

The List:

1. physically weak [lifting almost every day, actually gaining some strength] [stopped lifting, strength gone, gained a little fat in belly]
2. undisciplined [not much, but I'm a bit better at doing what I know I need to do]
3. sexually inexperienced [nothing, I haven't even tried][Got girlfriend]
4. romantically inexperienced [see above][Got girlfriend]
5. bland personality (probably) [I'm not sure if this is or was ever true.][Practicing more self-compassion now]
6. lack of direction in life (independent from the college, I mean) [my direction now is back to my initial college][Graduating in a few months, still lacking direction beyond getting a job]
7. no ability to focus [diagnosed with ADD, exercise is helping I think][worse]
8. no ability to commit to long term goals [my main long term goal is to return to my initial college][Small improvements, I'll elaborate below]
9. lack of motivation [if I cultivate discipline motivation should only play a role in the things I do for fun][I think this is a problem stemming from lack of direction for long-term goals, and inability to focus for short-term goals]
10. excessive masturbation [dropped from one or more times per day to once every few days, still too much in my opinion][holding steady]
11. procrastination [slight improvement][still bad though]
12. irregular sleep schedule (due to 2, 8, 11) [I think it was mostly due to having no regularity anywhere else. I'm doing well in this regard][worse than the last update, but still better than the update before that]
13. life is slowly falling apart (due to 2, 6, 7, 8, 9, 11) [No longer true][I no longer feel this way]
14. vague depression (likely as a result of 3, 4, 6, 10, 12) [Barely noticeable][I only feel this way occasionally]

New Problems:

1. Posture bad, back hurts sometimes
2. I'm getting less flexible, sitting too much
3. Dissatisfaction with sexual prowess (more technique than stamina, but a bit of stamina too)
4. Dissatisfaction with clothing and style

Updates:

• Got Girlfriend: didn't really use any RP tactics to attract her, but information I read on here and the subreddit helps me interact with her properly sometimes. There was a strange period in which I had three different women trying to get with me. Maybe I subconsciously was doing something.
• I've definitely gotten more socially comfortable talking to people. My instinct to withdraw is still there but not prominent.
• Started stretching (almost) every day. I think I'm getting more flexible again, but I'm not to the point that I was.
• I'm getting a lot better at cooking. Messing with fermented foods now too.
• Exercising self-discipline when it comes to small things has helped me get better at exercising it for bigger things.
• I've recognized recently that not everything I do needs to be perfect, and as a result am less paralyzed.
• Started using a physical planner.

Concrete Plans: (plan -> action) (better to start small, as large change has eluded me)

• Continue stretching daily
  • Add back stretches for hunched posture and rounded shoulders
  • See a physician when I am able, to get additional advice
  • Once I feel my posture and flexibility has improved enough to avoid injury, start weight lifting again.
• Continue improving sleep schedule: goal is out of bed at 7:00 AM.
  • I will accomplish this by going to bed earlier.
• 20 minute run every morning outside if weather permits, treadmill inside if not (increase length later)
• POST UPDATES HERE WEEKLY STARTING SUNDAY AUGUST 7TH (it's in the calendar)

Requests: (not sure if anyone will read this post but its worth asking)

• Anyone know any good stretches for hunched posture and rounded shoulders?
  • I don't think I can put my arms straight up as normal people can, they are tilted forward.
  • Butterfly stretch also doesn't feel right, but I'm not sure what to do about that.
• Any good sources for clothing and style that won't turn me into a metrosexual