@Goingthedistance

Wrong.

Evil does evil because they want to be god. But since flesh is weak they cannot and go mad.

Satan wanted to overthrow the kingdom of heaven and so was banished.

I'm starting to sound like @Carnold03....

fuck it.

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@Goingthedistance

I researched unit 731 for my book. Historically the worst documented event in mankind.

From what I gather on the idea of god is Christians often refer to the free-will aspect of humankind. That if god made us not do sin it would defeat the whole point of living and we wouldn't be truly free nor would we be able to truly love or be truly good. A good man for example is a man of power who has self-control to do the right thing. Fair point.

Second, god came in the likes of a mortal named Jesus. To suffer alongside humanity and die for their sins.

another would be that this life is of earth is not of god. We should connect to the spiritual world not the physical. Flesh is weak. This life does not restrain me from the will of god. Is what they say.

This way of thinking, like it or not empowers the individual in the darkest of times.

And I would rather have that asset than the thoughts of nihilism. Absurdism isn't strong enough you start combusting and questioning every aspect of yourself when shit gets dark. You explode.

Does it perfectly explain why evil exist? i'd say a little bit. But does it explain unit 731? No.

If I was in a horrifying situation, would I rather have nihilism or God? i'd choose god.

Look at hacksaw ridge, look at unbroken. Two men who endured horrible times and overcame. Both were Christians.

The armor of light.

@Goingthedistance

What it means to me, The past 30 days I've done a leap of faith towards god.

No lust, no anger, no vanity, nothing - sitto.

NO PEE PEE TIME.

Just work, guitar, writing my book, calisthenics and skateboarding-ish.

Fulfilling enjoyment.

I feel like a kid again and I feel so FUCKING peaceful.

I am enjoying the fruits of life, not the pleasures of life.

I'll go out and a girl will notice me and you know what?

it brings my energy down 90% of the time.

I can just feel the lust radiating off them and I don't want that shit. That's a hoe. A succubus.

The rare girl? We make eye contact and it's just joy. Not lust but simple enjoyment of attraction. The energy of both us goes up. We both smile. Normally I would cold approach but I'm still finding my footing mentally after everything I've gone through.