Wow, another year gone.

Reflecting on the goals i set for myself last year: the side hustle venture went well in the past two months, the months of learning about value betting, learning coding and automation lead to some profit however my account got restricted, going to set up a few more accounts and get the money rolling in again. Didn't quit porn, *sigh*. Didn't do much with my education, felt like I spent half the year out of school. Solo travelling, good, went to Vilnius, Lithuania for a weekend and went out partying with some strangers, 100% want to do it a few more times this year. Confidence still pretty shite, I think my levels of giving a fuck have decreased which is a positive. It wasn't on last years goals but gym has been going well, very consistent over the first 10 months of the year, however illness and exams have limited me in the past month or so.

Just wrapped up a month long temp position doing night shifts at a supermarket, pay was okay but not great for sleep etc, the boss man said I could come back if I wanted to in the future but hopefully I don't have to revert to that. I'm hoping to secure a year-long placement in engineering, they're quite challenging to get and my motivation is quite low, but it would be nice. Swamped in university work at the moment, productivity is fairly low rn, I have 4/5 assignments due this month so will have to get my head down to get those done.

Fitness was okay this year, first full year of lifting, starting training 4 days per week from 3 mid way into the year ( upper, upper, lower, upper) . I want to add in more functional fitness this year like farmer walks and tib raises. Feels like progress has been slow but I've probably progressed more than I realize. Physique looks a tiny bit better but looking at my progress pics I find it hard to see changes, recently I've seen some nice bicep definition even though it's vague. Protein intake has been great, weekends not as good. Also still struggling with sugar.

The female situation has been non-existent this year. Broke all contact with females outside of family, don't want to dwell on this topic too much but harsh reality is I need to get my act up, fix my style, fashion, and probably reluctantly get on tinder.

Goals for this year
- More cardio (spin bike zone 2)
- Go abroad at least twice
- Make £10k
- Clean diet (and cut for summer)
- Buy another car (BMW E30 or Volvo 240)

Started off this year in another lockdown for two months, doing shit at school because I was struggling with paying attention online and actually caring about school. In February I turned 18 and soon after got a shitty part time job at a posho garden centre, got fired after two weekends because the management were didn't give me any guidance with customers and in all honesty I was shit at communicating with customers.

I was talking to lots of girls thousands of miles away on snapchat maybe because I was bored, maybe for some self-validation. I cut that shit out, down to one girl, however I don't go out of my way to talk to her. Still got no action this year or barely interacted with any girls irl, I don't know how to think about it, I'm justifying it as working on myself getting up my SMV. I don't put pussy on a pedestal like pandering to their needs and giving them attention like I might have done at the start of the year.

Finished sixth form in 2021, feel like I got shafted a little by grades given by my teacher, C's in Physics and Geography with a D* in Engineering. In the summer break got a full time job as a water hygiene assistant (glorified toilet flusher). Put most of that money into crypto and stocks, also did some secret shopper shit on the side of that. Started university after that, definitely harder than I thought, although I prefer their way of teaching with online lectures and in person tutorials. Joined the cycling group and formula student, some good lads in there but very few women.

Friends, left some 'friends', probably acquaintances I used to eat lunch with everyday at school, a bunch of introverts and outcasts. My other group of friends essentially play games and go to work, It was hard to get them out the house even when they weren't working and it was summer. I went out clubbing with them maybe 4 times, got put off it, maybe not my thing, maybe it was because of the people I was with.

In terms of fitness, It's all foggy but following 2020 I think I was still working out in my bedroom consistently but not gaining any muscle because I was eating very little. Started the year at 67kg but put some weight on over the year up to 73kg in October because I was eating shit and not working out, joined the gym at the start of November and been going 3-4 times a week since. However, need to improve my diet still and add more protein and cut most treats out but I am still putting some muscle on.

Things I want to work on in 2022 are; developing a side hustle or passive income source, I did matched betting in 2021 but now that's dried up, started value sports betting and want to start some forex trading. Quit porn, sounds simple enough. Get the most out of my overpriced education, make more friends, do extra curricular things I enjoy eg Formula Student. Finally, do some solo travelling and get out into the world, develop confidence and most importantly enjoy life.