It's been five months since my first and only post on this site. Failing to maintain participation on a website is normal for me, however. Due to my poor performance and deteriorating mental health last year, I'm taking a semester off to get my shit together. Instead of college, I'm working full time and taking a few classes at a local college. I feel better, but it's hard to tell if that's because of the changes I'm making in my life or just because I've left the extremely stressful environment I was in before.
To my surprise, I've been able to make some progress. Here's the list of problems I posted five months ago, with what's changed in brackets:
- physically weak [lifting almost every day, actually gaining some strength]
- undisciplined [not much, but I'm a bit better at doing what I know I need to do]
- sexually inexperienced [nothing, I haven't even tried]
- romantically inexperienced [see above]
- bland personality (probably) [I'm not sure if this is or was ever true.]
- lack of direction in life (independent from the college, I mean) [my direction now is back to my initial college]
- no ability to focus [diagnosed with ADD, exercise is helping I think]
- no ability to commit to long term goals [my main long term goal is to return to my initial college]
- lack of motivation [if I cultivate discipline motivation should only play a role in the things I do for fun]
- excessive masturbation [dropped from one or more times per day to once every few days, still too much in my opinion]
- procrastination [slight improvement]
- irregular sleep schedule (due to 2, 8, 11) [I think it was mostly due to having no regularity anywhere else. I'm doing well in this regard]
- life is slowly falling apart (due to 2, 6, 7, 8, 9, 11) [No longer true]
- vague depression (likely as a result of 3, 4, 6, 10, 12) [Barely noticeable]
I've also been reading, something I stopped doing years ago. Mostly stuff from the red pill book collection (https://www.reddit.com/r/redpillbooks/comments/3rk...), and one called 'Conquer Your Campus'. I'm seeing a psychologist too, but I've only had one appointment so far. I don't think that's a factor yet.
I'm going to keep going and see where I end up. I might even try posting once week like I said I would five months ago.
Tip ceph for their post.
Keep on keeping on. If you need encouragement, don't be afraid to reach out to others here.