I just got tired of being a beta and I want to continue down my TRP path.
I wasn’t always a beta, but the choices I made and the circumstances I created definitely got me there. Growing up, I always had medical problems. I was born with a genetic heart issue and I had a lot of seizures up until I turned about 30. After high school I developed a serious habit with opioids and I kept ruining my life with Xanax blackouts. I was basically gutter garbage. Then I had a heart surgery, at 30, and was unable to work. Since I couldn’t work, I didn’t have any money and had to move into my late grandmas house way out in the country, with my parents, so far from the world I basically no longer existed.
Since that was the case, I went into hardcore withdrawal from the opioids and had to check into rehab. When I got out I had nowhere to go so I went back to my grandmas with no car, no money, and crippling depression from not having opioids. I spent 3 years of my life that way. Doing nothing. Getting walked on by everyone, especially women, and not getting laid that entire time. (I was very sexually active before this).
I finally got sick of it. I went back to school and got some certifications. I invested my stimulus in crypto and made enough to buy a car. I used that car and certifications to get a great job. I make at least 3x the household average in my state.
So I’m finally back on top and ready to be social again, but I’ve found that I absolutely HATE women now. They’re shallow, egotistical, rude, selfish, they don’t work, and they think men should basically worship them and if you don’t then you’re not worth their time. Trying to connect with someone like this is just annoying and I look around and see that men are willing to act the way they want EVEN IF ITS A FAT CHICK. And online dating is even worse! They demand for a mans profile to be complete and they demand that a mans message to them be unique, all while knowing that they are probably just going to ignore the message anyway. And the other men are playing right into their hands and it’s making women feel like they run the show. They can act however they want because they get 1000s of messages a day from desperate beta males.
I had a date get mad at me last night for calling her out about being a LOT fatter than her pictures, like I should just be good with it because I’m getting attention from a woman.
Holding a door open or putting the toilet seat down? I’m not doing that shit anymore. It’s no longer about being considerate, it’s all about treating women like they are the diamonds of the earth.
The problem I have, I’m not alpha enough to be thinking this way right now. I’m thin and haven’t worked out in years, I still look like I’m in my early twenties, and even though I make good money I still drive an older scion and have basic clothes. I need to step my game up, but I’m lazy as shit. How do I commit myself to taking the red pill completely?
I think I’ve basically decided that women are worth nothing more than live jerk off material and that I’ll never marry anyone but I’d still like to get laid whenever I want and I don’t want to do it with a fat chick.
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