I need a new creative outlet for the feelings of contempt I hold for myself, poetry isn't working for me anymore.
I already go to the gym and I've read the sidebar.
I think I can be a successful dumbass, I think I have the reading abilities of a 10 year-old despite almost getting into a Russel University for guess what? English language. I fail to conceptualise things and when I write I'm just pure emotion. So I'm sorry if you think that my writing is inconsistent because I write as I feel. I talk to people in the same way too, feelings come up and I try to pop them all like bubbles.
@Typo-MAGAshiv I don't really care what I am, I never scored ISFJ but I was using it as an example of how other people probably see me. I'm pretty much a boring nice guy. OOOH! READ NO MORE MR NICE GUY AND THAT'LL HELP YOU TO ATTRACT SHALLOW BROADS!!!!
I would, but I have no one in my life to complete the instructions with. I've already done a pretty good job at delaying my true feelings to connect with people offline/ listen to them.
Also, I'm thinking in terms of black and white again. Either: Monk mode (for God knows how long), then high quality women. (A high quality woman would be someone who's on self-improvement, somewhat traditional, feminine at least a 7/10 'ride or die' girl who I'll have to date a few women up the decile scale, looksmaxx and learn game to get to).
Abundance mindset- just sleeping around, but I'll feel disgusted with myself and waste a lot of my time that could be spent studying/ working a part-time job, taking flying lessons and eventually learning a trade. Will help with above, but why waste so much time?
Blackpill and coom, then I'll have all the negative feelings associated with sleeping around without the abundance mindset that comes from sleeping with 40+ women.
Read More@Typo-MAGAshiv One of my weaknesses is definitely my writing. I don't really know what my strengths are: I'm not particularly funny (only in a contextual sort of way), I don't have any real creative talents, I don't consider myself to be an intellectual, I used to be a straight- A politics student but no one wants to be bored by me explaining the difference between anarcho-communism and state communism. I'm basically your stereotypical ISFJ house mom trapped in a dude's body and I don't see how that'll interest any women.
Bluepilled question: How much should I really care about my lack of emotional intelligence (low EQ)? Does it really affect things in the long run? What if I want to beta down someday and have children with a partner, would emotional intelligence come into play then?
Zoning out, ignoring women in a group where they're the majority and then being declared a creep for doing so. I don't want 'girl talk'. My energy is drained quicker by game. I only want to talk to men now. Women are just there, men are who I gain energy and strength from.
Something I often dismiss within myself which causes a mental castration when I talk to women is that I actually crave drama. I'm attracted to it. I love causing shit because it gives me a feeling of gratification. I never admit this or play to this strength because of 'the consequences' I've been brought up to fear which puts me in a state of perpetual inaction and misery. Recently I got the all-clear for not having Asperger's so I know that it's all in my mind. My overthinking mind.
@RedPirate751 I'll do both. These 'steroids' are basically maca tablets btw lol
