How to balance being the alpha and being authentic? In my journey the red pill main thing for me was finding my internal validation - first not being ashamed of wanting the sex second finding general internal validation instead of trying put myself in standarts defined by others. I understand that natural selection play to the benefit of alpha, but lately I try to search for my own validation more, i did boxing and military training got jacked, did some other things which were basically for my own independence in order to feel okay without female aproval which is most important thing for me as my agency and freedom goes. Lately I feel that being honest instead of putting game is less rewarding but feels more okay to me - like handling shit tests, I know the theory, but just I don't want to pretend to be someone i'm not in order to jump through hoops. Anyone had same thoughts? Is redpill more about internal locus of control or PUA stuff, I guess its both.