@elizabethscoffin reading some of what you've posted and man...the real problem you have isn't that the world keeps telling you how shit you are. Your problem is that you believe it.

Danny DeVito is short, ugly, and fat. He didn't get that way overnight, he's been that way for a long time and before he became a famous actor and comedian. He became famous, rich, and successful WHILE BEING THAT WAY.

Patrick Stewart started going bald at 18. He was bald his entire adult life, and I don't know how tall he is but I don't think he's towering in stature. Now he is in his 80s, and married a woman 50 years younger than him after having a tremendous career.

The world will bombard you with shitty feedback. It's easy to wallow in it, taking whatever you're given because you think that's all you deserve. You can accept that frame, believing yourself to be a useless piece of shit because hey that's what the world keeps saying right? They wouldn't lie to you...would they? Human beings would never put others down to feel better about themselves, or to increase their own standing, or just to see if that person is susceptible to it. You can accept the place others put you in.

Or you can dig in your heels when the world tries to push you and say "no, YOU move".

A Redpill without proof is a placebo. I can't be redpilled if I'm unable to get women because there is nothing for me to structure my game off of. I have nothing to work with, physically, unless I masturbate over having an intimate partner. I can't focus on myself if they won't leave my pedestal, so I have to hate them off of there meaning I am blackpilled. I have no choice because resources are scarce and attraction is rare in this society. The purple pills I've been taking, boxed as redpills, have been placebos where I don't have to be attractive to get the girl. The closest I can get to the truth is the blackpill, because men who are redpilled can just treat it as a fun game where they're the prize swooping up all the women like worms to the eagle. If I already had a baseline in looks, I could riff to the beat of my own improvement. I could enjoy the attention of others whilst I build myself up instead of sinking below and drowning like broken girders. People will say 'oh, but you're average' without realising that average people have somebody to talk to. I have no one.