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Hi all. I cannot express how meaningful the support has been here the last few weeks. I was waiting till I had an action plan here before commenting to anyone.

I have spent the week processing and trying to heal from the narcissist abuse that lead me to getting more severe, but further trying to understand address the demons that have led to the past 2 years of daily alcohol abuse.

Further, I made a promise to be 2 weeks sober by April 18th, which coincidentally is the 15th anniversary of my my first manic episode, funny how that works and largely why i drink.

I am being prescribed naltrexone, which i forgot I was on once to get over benzo dependency. i have a referral to addiction services without rehab. I am more than likely going to look for psychotherapy and i want to try to find more beauty in the world. I keep looking for meaning in ugly people. I want to love myself more.

Thank you for all of the support, taking steps to address the problem it means a lot.

@Kloi This might be recent enthusiasm talking, but I would recommend Otto Weininger's 1903 book, Sex and Character. It's philosophy rather than psychology or self-help, but, considering its age, it's amazingly accessible, and cuts deep into the subject of the matter - the matter being the dynamics between the two sexes.

The guy was called "anti-Semitic", which is probably why his book isn't referenced even a sliver of the impact it had. (In fact, he was gay and autistic, and his "antisemitism" was just transference of the feelings towards his mother).

So, Otto talks about "the genius", which is practically, the man. And identifies what's at the core of what makes him a man, as well as why such a core is missing from women. Compared with modern behaviorism, having someone lay out the basic principles from which all the partial behaviors stem is refreshing and enlightening.

@Kloi

No! You're suppose to let the jizz dry on your face. It's good for the skin or some shit.

As a teen in the late 70s/Early 80s, I found my Dad's stash of "dirty" paperbacks.

One of them, this was the very plot of the thing. Thot/Streetwalker protagonist accidentally got jizz mixed with thick makeup on her face, left it that way overnight, and noticed her skin was extra soft and supple in the area where the jizz mixture was. She experimented and worked on the formula, and built up a cosmetics company that included banks of women who worked sucking off lines of men and spitting the jizz to get used in the formula.

The product worked extremely well and she built the company into a huge success and sold out to some big cosmetics conglomerate, gaining fantastic wealth from her humble thot/streetwalker beginnings. At the very end, she realized that the testosterone in the formula caused users to start growing facial hair, and laughed all the way to the bank with her riches.

Yes, the plotline and writing was as ridiculous as it sounds here.