Just grounded myself. Stood barefoot in the dirt for two hours, while leaning back against a tree.

When I was done some guy fourty feet away on a bench asked if I was okay. I quietly said "fuck off". He didn't hear, so he asked again, " you alright man?". I said "fuck off!" Much louder. He said "you fuck off man", and I heard him say to someone he was going to stab something into my eye.

I calmly breathed, brushed the dirt off my left foot first, put sock on, then brushed right foot off, put sock on. As I slid my brown leather shoes on I heard him say "... he's a man. It's just what men do! He's gotta find himself a trick." To someone beside him. (Trick=hoe)

I always, always, turn to the left. I lean to the left, I use my left hand. So I turn left and walk to the field, start picking dandelions and eating them. Corner of my right eye I notice movement. I glance but don't turn my head.

A girl walks up and asks something. "What?" I say. She comes closer. "Is my makeup fine or do I need to blend it in more?".

I say "I'm not a makeup artist, I don't know." She keeps asking in different ways and I say "no. No. No." While shaking my head.

As she walks away I remember the neg principle, or the posneg as I call it. So I say "I think you look great but maybe just don't think about it so much" . No response, maybe she didn't hear me.

No one respects me, no one honors me, everyone wants to abuse and kill me.

Because I'm a white man, a patriarchal authority figure. Even though I have zero authority. It's been weeded out of me. The people in my country are insane. Canadians I'll have you know are completely insane. There's no sanity in a Canadian human. If you're Canadian, you're insane. Period. Canadians are insane. Canadians have lost their minds, if they ever had one to begin with. It's time to leave this filthy country. I'm tired of living in hell, and that's what Canada is. It's for dead people. If you want to live, and fight and spit and fuck and scream and shoot and piss and dominate, you can't live in Canada. We will drag you down to the bottom of hell. We hate successful people in Canada. If you're successful in Canada, fuck you. We're going to take everything you have and spread it thin among the herd of communists we are. If you have money, fuck you, it's ours now. If you have land, fuck you, it's ours now. If you have joy, well, we can't take that because communists can't feel joy, but we'll at least take it away from you so you can't have it anymore, because fuck you. Also, if you have a wife, fuck you, she's ours now. Children? Ours. Food? Ours. Clothing? Ours. Shelter? Ours.

I used to be so indoctrinated with communism and democracy (which precipitates communism and socialism), that I would say Canada is the greatest, whatever. I said that, as a young man. "Canada is great!" Fuck no. Materially, yes. Spiritually, hahahahahahahhaahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahaha. Spirituality in Canada? Nah, we'd rather have tim Hortons processed food, hockey that never ends and an inflated currency worth only what it can provide in heat from burning it. Oh and vaccines. We don't believe in God, we believe in vaccines. Spirituality doesn't exist in Canada, we just like our bimbos and wine. Bimbos and wine baby serve me a saucer of used cunt and wine. Spread some maple syrup on that cunt and lick it up. Bang a dirty brown used LOOSE vag with meat hanging out the lips. Give me all that and then some. Fuck God. FUCK GOD, IM A CANADIAN.