@Osiris I guess the point Evola was making was that at least he was doing something rather than waiting for his death. Being in a shelter does not mean surviving. His flirting with death is similar to why people do anything dangerous. Seals doing pullups off of the side of destroyers. Parkour on top of buildings. Motorcycle riding without a helmet. Just because you wear a helmet doesnt save you, so enjoy it.

for every step I go forward I go two back. feel like my physique is good but will i ever be happy with it? or am i just not happy and it has nothing to do with my physique?