@sweatybadger

How do I get over the fact that I "lost" a virgin

This goes back to my break up post, but TLDR had a literal virgin that I became her first for everything sexually. Things didn't end up working out, now I'm tainted because that was my literally a 1 in a billion chance.

I accept total accountability that it was the lack of me being a complete man that lead to me losing her. Now she's literally out there riding the cock carousel after her first long term relationship with me lol...

Consider investing into a reliable ready reference you can pick up and study to better prepare yourself for engaging the opposite sex. I'd suggest that you get yourself a copy of Doc Love's "The System: The Dating Dictionary". Doc Love, who until his passing was also known as Tom Hodges, wrote a weekly advice column that's archive is mirrored on several mens focused sites and a podcast. His media is a bit pricey, but it's a solid foundation a guy can branch out from in RP aware circles. I'd suggest you review his advice column to decide if his view on dating and relationships is aligned with what you aspire for yourself. To save yourself a search, give this scribed link a gander to find out if his book is something you'd like to add to your library. It should also be available on libgen.