@Wartortle

Slept with a friend? Where do I stand? Is it over?

Background

• I’m 29. Lots of relationships, always end as it don’t want kids or marriage. Currently in an open relationship.
• she is 39, two daughters and going through a divorce
• met her via mutual friends. Over the last few months we gotten close over various social events. She doesn’t come to much as she is busy but she always comes when I’m 100% certain to be there. She gets very jealous when other girls speak to me.

Party and sleeping with her

• we was at a party, we spent all night together. We kiss slightly a few times but she pulls away. She says I have a girlfriend or that everyone is watches
• she tells everyone we are just friends.
• we separate but I hear that she is looking for me. I find her, we kiss and make out.
• we get a hotel room and we sleep together.

Mixed signals from her

• she tells everyone we are just friends
• while kissing and making out she says she can’t do this as she too old for me. She has too much baggage with children
• she tells me she never wants to lose me as a friend. I’ve become invaluable in her life. I’m a high point for her.
• she said she can’t be with me as I don’t even want to get married. She pulls away from kissing. I lean back and she says your not even fighting for me.

I call her the next day

• I call her to she how she is and what she wants. I tell her are we more than friends? She says she wants to keep things casual as friends. And see where this goes with no labels.
• she can’t jump into things as she never has much time with full time work and having two kids. She said is going through divorce as well.
• she doesn’t want to jump into things and ruin our friendship. She doesn’t want to lose me from her life as she wouldn’t know what do without me.
• she says she barley has time for anything and she can’t just drop her commitments for me.
• she said she has a fear of getting hurt.

What is going on?

• have I blown my chances by asking if she wants more?
• what does she want? Does she does want just friends or something more.
• is she afraid that I’m younger and therefore could leave at anytime? Thus losing me all together?

What should I do?

• when I next see her act like it never happened and just flirt and be friends like before or maybe ignore her and let her feel what life is without me?

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