@robert86

Are these IOIs?

Been rejected by more than a hundred women. Kissless virgin at age 22.

In horrific accident when I was younger, my face is badly scarred and I lost an eye. Girls are scared of me, people in public generally avoid me, I look scary.

Been studying red pill for the last year and a half, still no success with women. My roommate introduced me to this forum and I've been reading it a lot.

Started going to the gym, in great shape and confidence improved a lot. Decided that if I look like a scary monster to just lean into it. I am taller and in better shape than most men now. I decided to grow a long blond beard and start thinking of myself more like a strong and badass pirate or viking rather than a disfigured loser nobody would ever want.

But I continued to be rejected by women HB4, HB5, HB6. Never aimed higher than that. Long spells of not bothering to try at all, broken up by periods of trying and failing. Zero success. My life has been lonely.

So now HB8 in my social circle is really nice to me. I never thought I would have a chance, having failed with less attractive women. She is the super hot cousin of my friend's fat girlfriend and we found out our places of work are right next to each other so we started hanging out on work breaks sometimes.

She is really nice to me, seeks out my company, asks about me if she hasn't seen me for a few days. She has asked about my accident and my scars which is something nobody asks me like it's some kind of taboo, they are just afraid of me and would never dare ask but she is so casual and upfront. I can wear my eye patch or my prosthetic but both are uncomfortable and irritating and when I spoke of that she said that she doesn't see a need to, that she doesn't care, that she is not afraid of me.

I tried kino and she seems receptive. In fact she is the only person who has ever touched me for a long, long time. She hugs me when we first see one another, and before we part. A lot of women do this to people just to be friendly but I haven't seen her do it to any other men in our social circle. She has said to other women, right in front of me, that she likes men with my hair color.

I have been to her place as a group with our friends and I have seen that she reads romance novels about evil villains that kill people and spread bloodshed but are romantic, protective, and kind of beta to the female protagonist. I don't know why such a hot girl would show attraction to someone like me unless she thinks I could play into this role that might be her sexual fixation or something.

She says she wants to have children and a family but is too paranoid to be in a relationship, self-sabotaging them due to distrust and fear of cheating. When she was 12 she caught her father with his mistress and went through a traumatic divorce of her parents. She has not been cheated on but broke up with her past boyfriends because she was sick of worrying that they might cheat and admits she's crazy, seeing signs of infidelity even when men are probably innocent. She says there have been married men with children who have done terrible things to try to get a chance with her and she figures any man she might be with would do the same if someone more attractive came around so she stays single. So maybe she likes me because she thinks someone grotesque like me couldn't cheat on her. Or that because I'm big and strong and scary that I can protect her and fulfill a role that her father couldn't. She has to read those kinds of violent romance books for a reason right.

I'm moving into my new house this weekend and she offered to come over and help me. It will be the first time we will be alone together and she initiated it. She is showing by her body language that she is into me. I put my arm around her in public and she was not embarassed or repulsed. I am going to go for it even though it might screw up the dynamics of our social group if she rejects me. Do you think she is showing signs that she is interested?

Attempt to answer your own question: I think so. But this is the first time a woman has ever shown anything close to interest in me. It's hard to tell if I am looking too much into it or not, but I am going to go for it anyways.

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