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Lost Teenager

For background, I have recently turned 18 and I am a junior in high school. Also, my parents are getting divorced currently. Ok, so I have played football since I was 6. My dad had me specialize in it and become a quarterback. We've traveled all over the united states to train with the best coaches since i was a little kid. I never really enjoyed it until I turned 14. before 14, i loved legos or video games. I was never really good until around 12 where I made the local all star team for the national middle school all star league tournament. However, I served as the backup quarterback. I also played for the second best team in the state the following year. But i was behind now 2 highly touted recruits. I just stuck it out until high school assuming it would get better. It didn't at all. My freshman year my coach took all my good players on my freshman team and gave me nothing. We didn't win any of our five games. I did make varsity though which was pretty cool. The following year the schools qb graduated so I was competing with a kid who's mom was head of the booster club. I thought i had a shot but I was given less and lower quality reps since day 1. I couldn't take it after many meetings with my coach. I told him that I would be transferring. I transferred to a new school where I was the back up QB behind a senior who ended up getting injured, and I played the rest of the season. However, the coach at that school hated my guts and would call me an idiot and a loser in front of my whole team and say how stupid I was. I was so hurt so I decided to transfer again to a big-time school because I felt like that I had a talent and they said how bad they needed a quarterback. Turns out, they just wanted my money for tuition and the schools quarterback coach hustled me outside of school for overprice training lessons that were terrible and taught me everything wrong. I decided to transfer again. I met with the coach and he said how much he needed a quarterback. The school ended up paying for half my tuition and I decided to go. I throw better than the other kid but the Coach refuses to make me the starter. The other kid had to get hurt for me to play. I played so much better and all the parents were pissed i wasn't the starter. It didn't matter though. I ended up having to sit out 2 games for an injury i was playing through and our third string freshman QB who's mom works for the school and has donated over $1 million to the program got to play. He ended up performing terribly but every time I make a small mistake after I came back from my injury he would use the kid to try to manipulate me and throw me on the bench for the smallest things. He'd also insult me in front of my whole team during practices. I kissed his ass and always asked him what I can do better. He could never give me an answer. To fast forward. I have joined rugby and have been kicking ass. I also have an awesome GF from school that brings so much to my life. However optional football qb/wr training started back up, and dread it so much. I hate being there and my Coach is teaching us how to throw the ball the wrong way based on YouTube videos he found on the Internet. The joy has been really sucked out for me and unless I get a scholarship for D1 I don't think I want to continue this into community college. But the scares me as I don't know what I'm gonna do with my life. I'm not sure if I should get a blue-collar construction job, try to go get a job on wall street, earn his trust and run my dad's company, or keep this football thing going. I don't even know if I want to go to college or even go to college in America. I kind of have been thinking about going to college in Europe. I'm just so lost and so confused and I'm 18 now and I'm scared to grow up and I can't see the light at the end of tunnel. But I love (besides football) everything that's going on in my life right now. Please let me know if you have any advice for me.

For background, I have recently turned 18 and I am a junior in high school. Also, my parents are getting divorced currently. Ok, so I have played football since I was 6. My dad had me specialize in it and become a quarterback. We've traveled all over the united states to train with the best coaches since i was a little kid. I never really enjoyed it until I turned 14. before 14, i loved legos or video games. I was never really good until around 12 where I made the local all star team for the national middle school all star league tournament. However, I served as the backup quarterback. I also played for the second best team in the state the following year. But i was behind now 2 highly touted recruits. I just stuck it out until high school assuming it would get better. It didn't at all. My freshman year my coach took all my good players on my freshman team and gave me nothing. We didn't win any of our five games. I did make varsity though which was pretty cool. The following year the schools qb graduated so I was competing with a kid who's mom was head of the booster club. I thought i had a shot but I was given less and lower quality reps since day 1. I couldn't take it after many meetings with my coach. I told him that I would be transferring. I transferred to a new school where I was the back up QB behind a senior who ended up getting injured, and I played the rest of the season. However, the coach at that school hated my guts and would call me an idiot and a loser in front of my whole team and say how stupid I was. I was so hurt so I decided to transfer again to a big-time school because I felt like that I had a talent and they said how bad they needed a quarterback. Turns out, they just wanted my money for tuition and the schools quarterback coach hustled me outside of school for overprice training lessons that were terrible and taught me everything wrong. I decided to transfer again. I met with the coach and he said how much he needed a quarterback. The school ended up paying for half my tuition and I decided to go. I throw better than the other kid but the Coach refuses to make me the starter. The other kid had to get hurt for me to play. I played so much better and all the parents were pissed i wasn't the starter. It didn't matter though. I ended up having to sit out 2 games for an injury i was playing through and our third string freshman QB who's mom works for the school and has donated over $1 million to the program got to play. He ended up performing terribly but every time I make a small mistake after I came back from my injury he would use the kid to try to manipulate me and throw me on the bench for the smallest things. He'd also insult me in front of my whole team during practices. I kissed his ass and always asked him what I can do better. He could never give me an answer. To fast forward. I have joined rugby and have been kicking ass. I also have an awesome GF from school that brings so much to my life. However optional football qb/wr training started back up, and dread it so much. I hate being there and my Coach is teaching us how to throw the ball the wrong way based on YouTube videos he found on the Internet. The joy has been really sucked out for me and unless I get a scholarship for D1 I don't think I want to continue this into community college. But the scares me as I don't know what I'm gonna do with my life. I'm not sure if I should get a blue-collar construction job, try to go get a job on wall street, earn his trust and run my dad's company, or keep this football thing going. I don't even know if I want to go to college or even go to college in America. I kind of have been thinking about going to college in Europe. I'm just so lost and so confused and I'm 18 now and I'm scared to grow up and I can't see the light at the end of tunnel. But I love (besides football) everything that's going on in my life right now. Please let me know if you have any advice for me.