@hawkish

Some current problems, unique situation, Christian

You are not wasting your time reading or helping me, I am extremely high IQ and put in tons of work and implement things, I am doing tons of things, and I care about truth. I am mega based and right wing. I am doing a deep dive on red pill and dating stuff next couple of months and will study for rest of my life. I'm not sure what information is helpful. Also none of this is bragging, I dont care what people think and this is hopefully anonymous, I need help thats why I'm here. Thank you for your time and efforts. Problems are at bottom.

Also this is all from a real Protestant view of things, Im not debating what women are attracted to or how the game works, but I'm not willing to do anything immoral or dishonest. I realize this may make me get worse results and make things harder but I don't care. Even Owen Cook is talking about how the church helps reinforce marriage so there are benefits. I never had an interest in sex with women who aren't chaste virgins I think it is really disgusting and harmful, however if I was allowed to having 12 wives would be nice. I also feel that if a girl isn't a chaste virgin and a real Christian I wouldn't want to give her any time or attention or commitment ever in a romantic sense. The juice isn't worth the squeeze. You could convert a girl but Christians aren't supposed to date someone who isn't Christian. If I find an exceptional girl I may put time in to that tho.

I've been red pill for like a decade or more, I've learned and digested (need to implement and digest more tho) most of manosphere stuff except MRA which I think is pointless (there will never be empathy for men unless it benefits women). I'm kinda in a weird life situation where I cant work (family has money tho) and am fat (like 40lbs overweight) due to extremely serious health problems (but finally losing it, lost a ton already) but still attract girls 20 years younger (people think im like 15 years younger, I've been a health nut for my whole life) than me up to HB7, even some real Christian girls who were virgins at marriage or have boyfriends (I hate this, I dont want them and married girls are off limits), a lot of quality Christian girls (but not attractive enough), and I rarely go out but I naturally attract up to HB7 doing nothing dressed poorly and I've only seen a few HB8s IRL cuz I don't go out.

Im not alpha I'm sigma (it explains me perfectly, I have killed the beta mostly, still working on it). I have a big social circle from church, lots of friends, like 12 people I consider "close" and a wider circle of 50+ young people, I even organize social events. I do this because of 1) Christianity tells us to fellowship and 2) to get a wife. I'm fine with 1-3 good friends and never leaving house. I also have a high standard for looks and I don't believe in 10's, no one is perfect. I'm not pretty and I dress poorly, I need to drop like 40lbs of fat but I'm extremely masculine and strong and people call me arrogant/confident (no one can read me, people act like monkeys and jump to conclusions, everyone thinks they can tell peoples motives its extremely stupid). Some girl even asked me out recently. I will buy a new wardrobe when I get back in shape. I am reading Christian RP content as well. Anything in self improvement I am probably working on. Also I'm extremely funny but I know this doesn't attract women. I'm also extremely good at reading people and social cues/body language. I have pretty high levels of inner game but my outer game is trash newbie tier.

Even when I was 18 and purple pill and half beta (bible protects you from a lot, also family taught me some stuff), had extreme negative confidence, didn't know anything about women, and dressed like crap HB6.5-7 girls were interested and forward and approached, literally getting sexual assaulted, etc. Only reason I'm not married is health problems and only like 1-2% of girls 18-24 are even worth marrying and thats not taking many factors into account.

Main Problem:

Quality Christian girls like me, girls that are pretty enough to marry like me, but not one who is both.

What I want:

A HB6.5+, real Christian, 18-24, no clot shot, chaste virgin for marriage. I know all about the risks and problems, trust me, but I don't care. There are other qualities I want but its not important for discussion. I don't know my limits I may work on myself for like a year to see what I can get as my life is finally coming together again (remember you can lose your health at any time guys, it sucks I lost mine at around 20). Ideally I'd find a HB7+ who is 18 but picking are slim. I can tell girls this age like me btw, but again they aren't HB6.5+ so I don't care. I live in an ugly and liberal area unfortunately, liberals are more ugly than conservatives.

What I need to work on:

(I've already dedicated the next year of my life to this, I can spend several hours a day on it, and have spent most of the last month doing it)

Cold approach/day game (not gonna find quality at a bar/club), learning how to dress better, going to various other churches and christian events or events where marriage material girls would be, high level social skills/psychology/spy techniques, Christian dating/vetting for wife, respect and authority and trust.

Christian/redpill marriage stuff, how to deal with finances. Ill start looking into this when I go steady with a quality girl at latest.

I work on everything else that matters basically too. Theres always skills and stuff to learn.

Current Problems:

1) Lack of job...

Essay continues here: www.forums.red/p/asktrp/324095/some_current_problems_unique_situation_christian

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