Love the mental gymnastic contortions with this one: She decries the men online wanting, quote, "the husband experience (full loyalty and commitment)". I'm trying to translate what that means in womanese. If it's what I, in man-speak think it means, the men want to wife her up and such, she could hold them off while getting red carpet beta treatment. She could have a dozen "friend" orbiters.

Or perhaps what it means to her is that "the husband experience" means, hilariously, well, I don't take my wife out that often and eat inside (yes, a $10 Filet mignon steak from costco tastes better cooked at home than one bought for $40 at Longhorn.). They probably want to do netflix, popcorn, and sex. That's a date for us.

Others weigh in. What do you think she means by that word salad?

Still a failure from some perspectives, perhaps I was too weak, or too emotional about my heartbreak to pursue further. Perhaps I could have gotten a lay, but I'm still happy with what i got, which is more experience and proof that I'm not an ugly piece of shit. Either way, I won.

It wasn't a failure at all. If you close one door on your emotions, they just knock on a different one. Life isn't about the evasion of suffering. Breakups are going to suck but you are doing exactly what you should do in the face of a breakup. Behavior, emotion, and thought have an intangible relationship and by putting in effort toward accomplishing your goals, you're working to heal your emotional state.

proof that I'm not an ugly piece of shit

I may be reading too much into this, but you are enough as you are. You would be surprised the low quality of dudes that hot girls have fucked/LTR'd. You want to be the ugliest guy a rocket fucks/dates, not the best looking a girl will ever get. Being the former means your game is dialed in. Know that self improvement is great and you should do it but you are enough to fuck/date hot girls as you are now. Either way good field report. Keep up the approaches.