Near the end of each month, pop in with next month's goals, reflect on your current monthly goals and harass others about what they did well and not so well in regards to their individual goals.
In this case you lose nothing going all-in on that. I.e. don't let her hang by her rope. Her apologizing is a good sign.
My gut tells me the later and that's how I'm approaching it. Time will tell.
This is a tough one.
I can't tell if that's a "mask dropping" on her side, or genuine dread and defense because she feels your doubts and fears a separation.
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What you saw is her "real" self. Being around you non stop for a while day exhausted her capacity to keep up her usual mask, so she defaulted to her normal, this time not when she went back home alone, but while you were there.
On top of it, she understands that if this is going LTR, she can't keep up the mask 24/7, and this was a good chance to test the waters.
Take this at face value.
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She's been overly emotional the past few weeks. I finally said something after our camping trip. Snappy, defensive in casual conversation, constant comfort tests.
If it was just being directed at me, I'd assume she's getting lazy, dropping her mask as we exit the honeymoon phase. Her Mom, brother, even her boss and his fiancé have pointed it out. She's cried a few times in the middle of dinner because it's going to be awful.
She thinks it's her IUD as she's started bleeding and apparently hasn't for years. She set up an appointment for next week and has been much more conscious of her behavior. Apologizing almost instantly after she over reacts.
She seems to be actively trying to adress the issue but a man can only talk the same woman down off the ledge so many times before he goes, ahh fuck it, let her jump.
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Going to decide if it's time to end things with my girl or not over the next month
This seems kind of out of left field, based on how happy with her you seem to have been
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I didn't even know it was a holiday yesterday.
All and all it's been a pretty solid month other than one rougher week of fuckery.
I did not knock out any debt but I did enjoy pissing away my OT money frivolously (I dropped $1200 on a tool for me and my son). Side project wasn't my cup of tea. Heartburn is gone now that fasting is back.
Still having stomach issues so I bit the bullet and set up physical and initially meeting with a new PCP. Haven't seen a doctor in 8+ years.
This next month I need to continue working OT and actually remove some of my remaining debt.
I really should be reading more.
Going to decide if it's time to end things with my girl or not over the next month.
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@Kloi I was a smoker way back in the 80s. Tried to quit numerous times using all kinds of silly games and ineffective rituals. What finally did it was realizing how tobacco company money was getting used against other interests of mine. Stopped cold turkey, carried pack of cigarettes in usual shirt pocket untouched for 2 whole days. Finally felt free and gave them away to co worker.
One vice I'm damn glad I rid myself of!!!
Continue basically only smoke on the weekend.
Continue working OT.
I won't clear it out this month, but i should be able to pay off 1/3 of my remaining debt. I'd be happy if I knock out 1/5 of it.
Been having stomach issues. Going to revert to fasting but keep all the fruits and veggies and seem if that brings me relief.
I have a side project of learning something, I'd like to play with it this month to see if it's something I'll contiue with.
Still haven't started journaling but I've consistently using my planner and I'd like to continue to do so.
Continue reading. Happy to say I finished my first book in 4+ years. I use to love reading.
Overall it was a good month for me. I'd like to make next month even better.
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For w.e reason I thought June had another day in it.
Continue to reduce my weed consumption.
For w.e reason I thought June had another day in it.
my weed consumption.
lol