I'm not even sure what to call this. I've been reading and doing all of the motions for red pill sake and have seen some results. To me it was always something that worked and I logically understood why, I thought I embodied it but never truly did until a couple days ago.

The best way I can explain it is about 10 years ago, the shell and the egg I was in accidentally tipped over. I knew there was something but didn't know what. Following the red pill the past few years just felt "right" but I could never put a solid grasp on it. This past weekend I felt like the egg shell just exploded. Every thing I listen to and hear and read makes sense now. Intuitively. There are those who can see and those who can't. And a middle ground of those who think one way or another but the fact remains, you truly can or can't. I thought I could and maybe I saw some light coming in through the cracked shell that guided me.

I'm a bit afraid. The entire world is open now. But I feel like a newborn. I don't feel like I truly know anything. I know red pill regurgitations but man.