@quassis2001

FR Potential AW put her ASD due to me wanting to take a dump

Title is autistic but not misleading.

Background: Me: 25 yo. good job, 180cm, kinda slim with a bit of fat (previously was skinny fat and working on it) so not too intimidating, handsome but with baby face. Her: 24 yo. very good looking girl, has tattoos (because she is an tattoo artist as a hobby, she doesn't do it full time but her paintings are really professional so its not some trashy shit), green flags: very goal oriented, focused on work, doesn't seem to fuck around (but in her past who knows and I don't like to dwell on it), possibly Alpha Widow, her ex which she broke up with 6 months ago: 30 yo. guy with a kid, military, huge, propably would mog the shit out of me, they broke up because he was an alcoholic, wasn't responsible, was mistreating her (cursing her, saying she is shit etc.) and she told me he sat in front of tv, put some sad music and cried that his life is a mess and he is a fucking loser so I don't know what to think of it.

First meeting: We matched on Tinder, she actually is from a city 2h away but it's the city I grew up in so I said fuck it, first I was about to meet at her place, then she at mine but she got sick and she rescheduled, when we met she came to my town and we were talking for 7 hours but I didn't even k-close, her shit tests was so immense that I wonder how the fuck I managed to pass them. She said that I look very young, max 20 yo. and that I'm not that tall (she is 161cm but likes to walk in platform boots). After the meeting she texted that she liked our talk and she feels very safe around me which is rare for her.

Second meeting: Yesterday we meet at her city, she cooked dinner for us, and we talked, listened to music, we were talking about some childhood memories but as you can already see there was no sexual tension in the air. After some time I managed to get her to lie on my chest and she held me tightly, this was my window but at this point I wanted to shit so bad that all I could focus on was not to. So we were hugging each other and then we went to her sleeping room to lie there, it was very late and I guess the constant thinking about shit and her constant shit tests awoken some autism in me and I didn't k-close for solid 5 hours after first hugging session. She was visibly confused and upset (I don't really know what impression that made, because the entire time I was holding frame or atleast tried to, she knows I fuck bitches so it wasn't like she thought I was shy, at least I hope so). She put some eskimos kiss type shit and I still didn't kissed her because I wanted her to make the first move beacuse I was on ego trip or whatever idk. Then I kissed her, we kissed for a couple of minutes, I then went to grab a water, went back to bed and we started kissing again, at this point I tried to escalate but somehow I fucked up escalation ladder and while kissing I went from kissing her lips to kissing her neck to kissing her lips and when I put my hand between her legs she got ASD saying "no, we only met two times". I recently read "Fuck yes or no" so I thought I don't really have stamina for this right now and maybe it's actually good because I wanted to poop so hard but the logistics of it was not in my favour. I just looked at her, smiled, went back to hugging her and some time later when we were hugging she started licking my neck like it was made of sugar, she made one continous move from the collarbone to the base of my jaw with her tongue like it was some lolipop, but I didn't try again to escalate because of my very need to make a poop. At the morning she made us breakfast and I went back to my town.

Some questions:

1. How do you manage situations where you want to poop before f-close and you don't want to ruin the magic.
2. I don't really felt like alpha around her, I mean I was passing her shit tests etc. but the thought of her ex and how alpha he must be to her was really concerning, am I tripping or is she AW?
3. So she propably fucked this ex on first time they met, or at least had some ons but when it comes to me she ASD because sex is special or whatever, but the tongue thing she did was telling me she is freaky af and propably experienced, her denying me of sex was a shit test that I had to push through? Maybe she wanted to poop aswell and it was just unfortunate?

Sorry for retarded FR but if it was normal and succesful I wouldn't write about it here.

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