I'm sending CV's left and right but I'm hitting nothing.

Good.

What do the job agencies say? Find a good one. SEE WHAT THEY SAY.

I'm learning a tech stack so i can be more qualified for a specific engineering job.

Good

All my life my family has paid for my shit and so now I work in the family business and take a bit off money of just to pay for the gym and food.

urgh ok

I want to pay for hobbies but I don't feel like its my money to pay for it so I don't indulge in it

good

I just save it aside and its for the family not me even though they tell me you can have it because I have to pay for tickets to travel and other stuff. In the family, I spent a lot of time irresponsibly spending money so I feel like once I have my own job i can finally do MMA + Some other creative hobby (Need your opinion on this guys)

Right. Get a job.

My Main Problem

I get ioi's but my automatic reaction is to ignore them. I was just at the gym and this girl was working out next to me always and left when i left too.

Well.... IOI's are notoriously hard to interpret and act on. Women look when interested, don't look when they are interested, look when they have a boyfriend, etc etc.

So don't take them as approach invitations, because even when they are clearly staring, the woman has a range of intentions. Ergo, it is not clear unambiguous intention on her part.

That being said it doesn't matter - you can approach without them, and you can low key start conversations any which way.

I just feel on the inside I am uninteresting and don't deserve a woman and I'm a POS.

That's pretty negative, why do you feel like you're a POS? Because you don't have a job?

Even though I know that I am interesting and I'm nearly a month off porn now. One improvement, I see now i just say hello to women instead of not saying anything.

Well, that's good...... do you actually say hello?

I want a roadmap just to get over this. I encounter too much resistance. this has happened so many times i can't forgive myself and continue like this. I want to improve on this side. I fckin know I'm worth it

Ok.

As regards women: smile and say hello whenever you want to. Don't look away, but don't expect anything to come of it. Usually you'll get a smile and a mumbled something..... but that's not the point..... the point is for you to smile and say hello as a habit.

The other side of this: you probably got a load of negativity about yourself from your parents, or from girls or from society...... which is it?

This is not an uncommon problem. Its a sort of imposter syndrome. You raise your value a little but you can't raise your inner expectations until you get some feedback from life to base that raise on.

You need some victories.

My advice is not to push yourself too hard in your seeking these victories. For example putting yourself out there to make a lot of hard cold approaches, when you are not experienced or confident, will get you a lot of rejections and unless you luck out and get your 1 in 100 or 1 in 200 success early, you might feel even worse.

I recommend small clear steps. You could even keep a diary of small targets and small victories, gradually your confidence will build to a big victory. As matty says the small target of smiling and greeting every woman you see is a small goal you can manage. Then trying to have a good even if very brief conversation with each one you interact with is a good goal. Not one where you look good, just one where she feels good about herself by the end, and so on.

Getting a job will be a huge boost for you too and this will come too in due course.

Remember to remember all the things you are genuinely good at. You are not a loser and you know it.