Near the end of each month, pop in with next month's goals, reflect on your current monthly goals and harass others about what they did well and not so well in regards to their individual goals.
I think i need to write those up into a forum post tbh.
I'd probably read that.
After quitting hard drugs (which is a whole fucking other story)
And that. Been through heavy drug abuse myself.
TL;Dr of my life story
Started smoking weed in the middle school. Did really touch anything else until 20ish. Started drinking at bars at 21 and it all snowballed from there. Fast forward few good years then some really bad ones.
It all end getting caught up in a raid. Realizing I wouldn't sober up around the people I kept in my life. I took a pocket full of cash, boarded a plane, moving out West.
Was doing great for multiple years out there. Took care of my charges via zoom during covid. Moved back home for family a a years later. Then my dumb ass Reinvolved myself with all my old friends.
You know the ones I specifically left the state to get away from and sober up/leave our lifestyle behind. Basically repeating the last few years of my life up until the raid.
Coming up on 8 months sober outside of weed and I did the first six months free of that too. I'm now back to the point I was when I first moved home three years ago physical/mental/spiritual. Have an event better relationship with my family. And am killing it financially.
Typing this out made me realiz how close I came to being in the exact same situation that made me leave state the first time.
Among other things me and my ex split over this lifestyle. She hooked up with one of my guys. Instantly. Fast for three monts she got the house her and I had been living in for a few years raided for running her mouth drunk behind the bar, to undercover detectives.
Jesus fucking christ I dodged a fucking bullet.
/rant
Read MoreSo I started writing out a reply to this. I've had a few drinks, and it basically turned into my entire life story and my struggle with drugs and how it lead me to the red pill.
I'm not gonna make you read through all that shit, so I deleted it. I think i need to write those up into a forum post tbh.
But lets just say, I smoked weed everyday for 5+ years, I had my problems with hard drugs as well.
After quitting hard drugs (which is a whole fucking other story), I realized that all of the negative qualities I embodied (and fucking hated about myself) - lack of ambition, social anxiety, blue pill cuckery etc. Were caused by smoking weed.
I quit smoking weed and honestly, I've never looked back.
Sure, I occasionally smoke weed - but we're talking like once or twice a year, if that.
I know a lot of people will tell themselves that it's "not an issue" or all sorts of bullshit to justify to themselves why they dont really need to quit smoking weed. And sure, there's maybe that one guy in a million who can smoke weed and become the next steve jobs, but chances are that's not you.
And for the record - i have nothing against smoking weed, or the people who smoke it.
But what I can tell you is that smoking weed personally held me back, and since stopping my life has gone from strength to strength.
I've gone from being a fucking cucked loser to being a decent/high SMV male who has exceeded what I even thought was possible.
And my friends who kept smoking weed? Well, they still work minimum wage jobs and live with their parents at 30.
Read MoreI'm so much more ambitious
And this is exactly why I can not continue smokingm daily. Marijuana makes me too comfortable in compliancey to foster growth, smoking the way I smoke.
Am I done with pot for the rest of my life? No. I think it was McKenna who said something along the lines of, to get the most out of weed, abstain from it for as long as possible, then take the largest tolerable dose. Rinse and repeat.
When I was killing it on the West Coast, that's exactly how I used it. Once a month, roll up two fat woods and get uncomfortably high out in nature for half the day.
That's where I'd like my relationship with weed to get back to in the long run.
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Shit, its basically end of the month:
Stop smoking weed for the month (already 4 days in) but I'm willing to make an exception for the weekend of the 6th-8th.
Going to attempt to get into work regularly by 7:45am (actual start time is 9am).
Bike to work assuming June's weather is good.
Continue to write more.
Finish the book 7 Habbits.
Start Journaling twice a week.
Quit doom scrolling.....
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Well I cut back to only smoking at night so I'll take half credit.
Kimchi was eaten everyday except one.
Diets been solid except for a pizza party at work and my sons BDay. Basically went to a whole foods diet and I'm attributing this change specifically to my lack of inflammation.
Been killing it with the cold showers (except when the Y won't get cold enough in the morning and have a nice tan going.
Weather was great for one week so I haven't bikes to work but have been hitting at least 45 hours Monday through friday and another 5 on most Saturdays this month.
I actually have been writing a bit here and there, reading not so much in thr sense of books which what I meant but I did catch up on a lot of articles from a few selected individuals.
All and all I'd say I failed the month of May.
Read MoreTaking it more for the long term benfits to gut health than curing any symptoms.
For the month of May I intend to:
Cut out marijuana completely as I've been smoking too much lately.
At kimchi to my daily diet to see if it has any added benfits to my life.
Stick to a fairly strict keto diet. Too many random days of sweet binging.
Continue my cold shower/sunlight routine each morning as I do feel an added benfits from it these past two weeks.
Bike to work, two times a week, weather permitting.
Read and write more on a weekly baises. Journaling doesn't count.
Work more OT. Ideally 50hrs a week as a little extra cash would be lovely.
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