I'd rather someone who, from a point of already being there expounds on the above & beyond of this reality. I empathize with this feeling as well. I've found both Sufi and Zen stories to be good for this. Just be careful not to masturbate over them. For Sufism, "Tales Of The Dervishes". For Zen, "Blue Cliff Record". I'll leave you with a Zen saying conveniently relevant to your situation: "The path is not revealed only after explanation and direction; it is inherently always out in the open. Explanation and direction are expedient methods, used to get you to realize enlightenment; they are also temporary byroads. Some attain realization through explanation, some attain realization through direction, some attain by spontaneous awakening; ultimately there is nothing different, no separate attainment. It is simply a matter of reaching the source of mind." -- Foyan Qingyuan (1067-1120 AD)" />